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Romanticizing & Appreciating Everyday Life

When I was a teenager, I watched a lot of Japanese horror films, and something I kept noticing that I liked about them was their emphasis on the little moments. The romanticization of the mundane. The movie could be about paranormal hauntings, but the little cinematic scenes of a character doing basic tasks stood out to me the most. It was seeing the little daily things we take for granted, emphasized in a beautiful way, as if to make every moment in life seem special.

And after watching those movies, I’d find myself slowing down a bit, appreciating the sensation  and action of everyday movements. My careful footsteps on the wood floor, the clinking of silverware when I put the dishes away. Each action seemed to have more meaning, the more I paid attention to them. 

There’s an importance to slowing down and experiencing a moment with all the senses. Being present. Quieting the mind and being engrossed in a task. Doing things deliberately, instead of operating on autopilot. Because real life is in those moments of mindfulness.

It’s not as easy as it looks in the movies. We have distractions everywhere. We’re always thinking about the future and the past. Our thoughts run on in an endless stream. We’re busy all the time.

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I have a lot of big goals, and now that I’m back on my path, I feel so excited and ready to work. Which is a great thing. But I also have a brain that can take anything to an unhealthy extreme if I’m not careful. Balance is something that I’m actively working on.  I can’t let myself focus too much on the future, even in a a positive way, because then I don’t focus on the present, which is all that there is. And nothing in the future, and nothing external can bring me that feeling of contentedness that can only be found in being present.

Life is literally in the little things, in the mundane, in the everyday. All we have is now, so slow down and enjoy this moment. Celebrate your small accomplishments, because they all add up. Romanticizing your life allows you to truly enjoy the moment you are living in now. It helps us realize that the little moments can be just as special as the big ones if we make them.

What I Wore This Fall

Okay, so I didn’t plan on going months without writing a single blog post, but here we are. It’s been over six months since my last post. I had all the intention to start posting in May and then consistently every couple weeks, but spring and summer have come and gone. It’s nearly the end of fall now, which means winter’s almost here. Thanksgiving has passed, so now it’s *the holiday season*.

I always feel the need to pick apart my brain when I sit down to write. Like I need to explain how I’ve been and where my mental state is at. But in all honesty, my mental state fluctuates drastically from week to week, day to day, moment to moment, so there’s no way to sum up how I’ve been. Mostly I’ve been anxious but content, if that’s even possible. My life has definitely improved since the summer, but I still face challenges everyday. 

Time goes by literally so fast, and I feel like I’m trying to catch up with it again. Having two jobs leaves me minimal time and energy to focus on my passions, which is really upsetting. I’ve been trying to live more consciously, slowly and intentionally. Less time on social media scrolling, less time staring at screens. More time spent being creative. It’s very hard to stay consistent, but you can’t say I don’t try.

Which is why I’m here with some fall fashion content! We’re easing back into it with a simple fashion post of what I’ve been wearing this fall!

 

My views on fashion are always changing, but one thing that has remained is my love for fall fashion. Fall always feels like a big sigh of relief, a new beginning. The air feels breathable again. I’m not constantly sweating, which means I can wear more than just tank tops and shorts.  

This was my Thanksgiving look!

 

Layering is the best friend of someone like me, who gets really hot and really cold very quickly. I’ve actually obtained a good variety of light jackets recently, and I check the temperature every morning to know which one to wear that day. The brown teddy bear jacket is one of my faves because of how cozy it is.

While I still live for bright colors and tacky prints, I’ve been wearing a lot of earthy and neutral tones recently. Brown is definitely one of my favorite colors, and it goes well with my #1 favorite color, green.

I've been into more simple and practical looks lately. I love wearing pants, as long as they don't feel constricting, like jeans. I've also been feeling a little more androgynous and masc, so I'm not wearing as many dresses and skirts. I've only done makeup a handful of times since spring, as well.

It's cool to see my style evolve, and just let myself wear what makes me feel happy and comfortable!